It’s you + Me

Here’s the thing: This process of deciding on - and then living - a life of bold delight is what brought me to this very moment. But it feels like it took me forever to get here. I went down so many side streets, convinced I wasn’t good enough to do the work that I really wanted to do or be the person I really wanted to be. I did fun things, worked on cool projects, and sometimes I could even trick myself into believing that I didn’t have something else on my heart.

I had three problems:

1. I would not be honest with myself.

2. I would not allow myself.

3. I was committed to the belief that I was not good enough.

When I say that I believed I wasn’t good enough, I mean that I wasn’t even good enough to try, I wasn’t good enough to be on the path of improvement, I wasn’t good enough to even show up. I had this moment when I was so frustrated that I wrote in my journal, “what does ‘good enough’ even mean?!” Maybe that was the moment that changed everything because I was so beyond done feeling not good enough. I dug deep in my journal and came to the conclusion that I was absolutely good enough to show up, do my best, and improve.

As much as that moment was a turning point, it was also hella scary. I had just burst through this door, declaring that I’m good enough, and now I was face-to-face with the person I most wanted to be, staring back at me. She looked me dead in the eyes, lifted her chin a bit, and said, “So, now are you going to do it, or what?” As I stood in that stare-down, all the doubts and fears started to slither towards me, climbing up my legs, covering me in thick, black slime, and threatening to swallow me whole. They whispered in my ears, “you might think you’re good enough, but no one else does,” “you’re a loser,” and “it’s going to hurt so much more when you fail this time.” Still, this potential future version of me stood there, watching, unencumbered and unaffected, waiting to see if I’d shrink back or stand firm. While the visual was just my imagination, the racing heart, perspiration, and choice was real.

Something about all the weeks, the weekly calls via zoom/facetime/just phone, text support, marco polo

Week 1

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WEEK 2

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